In regards with what I mentioned in the previous post, about how relationships that weren’t ended properly gave me a very unsettling feeling, I was talking about me and my host parents.
I was a student exchange in Denmark a few years back. The day I board my flight, was the day I loss my grandmom. It didn’t hit me how sad I was cause I was never close to her, until a few days later when I was in the room I started crying. I can’t believe I missed her funeral and will never ever have a chance to bond with her again. With me grieving, and being homesick in this foreign country where barely anyone speaks English, I became very introvert and shy and miserable. It was Christmas season and I missed my family terribly. When it was time for me to leave, I left almost immediately without looking back.
And to think about it now, I feel like I owe my host family an explanation. I want to let them know given a different circumstances, I am a much more fun and easy going person to be with. I always feel like it is a lost how we ended things and never communicate since then :(